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LeVar “Var” Lawrence

Everyday I think about how I lay on that cold pavement

Bleeding to death trying not to see that hospital basement

Trying my best not to go towards that light

Don't want to die tonight ... This is my hardest fight

The last thing that I heard was the shot of that gun 

As I lay on the floor watching the people around me run 

At first I thought that I was just shot in my head

And I would lay there bleeding up until I was dead

This isn't the first time that I've felt how a shell burned

I was gripped up that night but that pussy shot me while I had my head turned

He knew it would be over if I had a chance to grab my gun

But that MTF waited until I had my head turned 

And then he shot me in front of my own son

Now I'm on the floor fighting for my life

Laying on the floor all I can think about is my kids and my wife

I can hear my friends screaming at the ambulance 

Hurry up and get him off the floor

While I'm trying to stay away from the light that's coming from a door

I heard an undercover say he's dead just put him under a sheet

All I could do was lay there and stare at his feet

Please God help me I don't want to die tonight

I've been through many battles but this is my hardest fight