Julie Skon

How I Am

ask me how I am
i will tell you the truth

my heart breaks when
i open my eyes
the morning brings a stinging truth
that I fell asleep to convincing myself it was a lie

my lungs sting
there is not enough air
breathing seems unfair
i am drowning in despair

my legs hurt
from the circles I am not walking
i am doing a dance
around the truth that i am not talking

my mind is scattered
i can’t keep up with this pace
i am tired of finding a reason
to stay in this race

my being is shattered
the pieces nowhere to be found
i am living a nightmare
my soul feels tethered and bound

they say to me
tomorrow will come
and again I will roam
this heart wrenching journey
of finding my way home